Too many things happened recently, too late to account one by one. Today only a little bit of time to recall this happened a little bit.
7 27, Fu check the organization in the unit, I was found to the right Milk has a cyst, the doctor advised me to take the children out before the surgery, although I already feel and psychological preparation, and yet my heart some fear, after all, taken out to the last section we know in the end is benign or malignant. Over the years, I It has feeling, they can touch, but I checked from the Internet, this smooth, mobile, not painful thing, should not be a malignancy. Since diagnosis, and still have to remove as soon as possible, I do not want me Oct. impact of pregnancy planning.
After many inquiries, that the operation can only be considered a minor operation, the patient can do, but outpatient surgery is not reimbursed by public health services, outpatient surgery in about 1000 or so are enough. Given my unattended after surgery here, I decided to Changsha to do, even if expensive than here, but also double it! but the house is over there, her husband is over there, her mother is over there Some people take care ah!
to Changsha with two hospitals, through a relative, do the B-ultrasound, to determine a cyst, the doctors insisted that I be hospitalized surgery, said that this hot weather, no hospital to treat the infection inflammation , the consequences would be serious, he was so scared, I do not dare to do outpatient surgery. But the hospital in Changsha, no 5000 estimates can not be discharged, so that all the words to their own expense, why should we live in Changsha? in order to save money I finally decided to go back to hospital, public health services may be reimbursed at least part of her husband can save some sore!
big sister that I listen to Zhang Yi unit after surgery, very actively to call me, asking me to go back and do , she can take care of me, hear I am very touched, when I want to cry, I feel like it has been a family. Though parents and sisters in the same city, but because her husband and married, I was driven out of their parents the house was my sister who did not understand, not one of them to my wedding, no one may bless me. While living in the sister house, but that was proposed by the father, she is not very good rejection. father to me, then is: the city back to work, contact the hospital thing, then other beds. the hospital business is really good! through the unit, I had the surgery in advance, but you can get to the surgery ward, do not live in the corridor on the .
to the surgery that morning, before her husband came from Changsha. to accompany him out to eat a meal before going to the hospital. The doctor told me eat breakfast, probably surgery to arrange to 1 o'clock or so. only in the corridor the upper beds. husband phone number, he tired and slept a few times. there is a children's ward came the cries, it was a tractor trailer was injured a little girl, buttocks and back, legs planted the skin, dressing time, she would pain a very tough battle again. Later, the doctor told several family members of patients over and over again, the patient had gastric cancer, chemotherapy is not effective, and what to eat what he can eat, what to do, do go. also see a removal of the entire left breast was 50-year-old woman, who hung with two drainage bag, which less than half of yellow liquid mixed bags to go back and forth back office (and later learned she was told to do chemotherapy, But she also said she was not cancer).
In this waiting, the doctor finally came to give me a preoperative needle, and also a shot butt needle (said to be calm), also picked a skin test. a operating room the doctor came to pick me, brought me a surgical service, the kind of blue and white striped dress, super. I reluctantly put on. In order to prevent her husband and sister concern, in order to emerge stronger, I Cars carrying bags into the operating room, I laughed, but deep uneasy, guilty as hell, after all, I grew up with injections are scared to death!
fact, it is a large operating department, everything is new! me go inside, the doors shut. which is very quiet, very cold. very few people walking around, those people are wearing blue plastic film coat, wearing the same hat and shoe covers, and masks. just like to do biochemical experiments ! inside the channel is very large, twelve separate operating room, every door is open and close automatically. maybe for me, this means that the blood, wounds, pain and the unknown fate, it is a little frightening atmosphere.
people to pick me up an operating room to open the door, which is surgery, I do not dare to look, saw a man with his mouth open like a queen, the doctor what to do if in his mouth. pick me who I waiting at the door, I sat there, just to shake out.
not long before he let me go to another operating room to go in, I climbed the operating table.
listening ears they speak, who for a work, and who also do, just like on the outside as simple as selling clothes, their hands can grasp the person's life ah.
that meet my male doctor and a female doctor (probably the anesthesiologist, listening to the sound older than I was little) to my knees bent shape on the operating table, and then the spine in my back by the determination of position by Yeah, I know that is going to give me anesthetic a. Then they rub my back for about a liquid disinfectant, and then a piece of plastic pad of paper, female doctor gently told me to relax ah, to a shot, I said OK, then, to think back on a pain, I want to give me the shot must look at the site of anesthesia can be reached the spine to go, be sure to hit 2 times, or that directly hit the spine, not killing human strange!
expected, In this pin, I felt her hard with larger needle into my spine in Riza, tied up not so painful, but the feeling rose up, and also bar a few times, I did not think the body is anesthetized as if the limbs are normal. I asked the doctor, make me fall asleep, or awake? they say we let you sleep you sleep, you awake, you awake, but to let you Dr Lam said awake. I said, Well, I'd like to sleep, woke up to have done.
anesthetist lay Let me lay flat after the needle, another person to give me the shot in my left hand to play in, than anesthetics also really hurt, no way, can only be trampled upon by this time. anesthetists after a few minutes later, on me test a few other places are feeling very keen, it touches on some of the insensitive right breast, but still have feelings, I am afraid of doctors in this case to surgery, quickly said that I still feel, ah, not so move it! She said there will be a sense of feeling, but to ensure that you do not hurt on the right. halo!
However, I would like played a role, and she gave me seemed to increase the anesthetic, then I estimate that I may be back in spinal needle attached to a bar, you can always add local anesthetic inside to Even if a temporary situation to ensure that surgery can also add a local anesthetic in a timely manner.
soon, my surgeon came, he told me to take something out, if no problem to open as a direct suture; If there are problems, it may be to be an emergency section, so 40 minutes later, biopsy results came out, if it is benign to the best, if it is malignant, I have still the early days, will consider cutting some of my more organized. them in my neck frame of a thing, blocking my view. My left hand was surrounded by a blood pressure device, every one will be automatically measure my blood pressure. my feet and hands have been installed on the ECG device it, the nose is placed in the oxygen tube, this time I'm just waiting for the doctor under the knife.
but my heart starts scared to death. I do not know the reasons for the cold, or scared, I began to unstoppable shaking, body trembling like a hit, like the Cold War. I curse your heart really useless, what fear, such a small operation, small wounds, so fear you?? be strong! be strong!
doctors with the interns began to disinfect the surgical site in my, I was nervous to the extreme, I am not afraid of anesthesia, causing me to killing friends!
Finally, the knife cut open my skin, I feel that I do not know the psychological effects , or the fear factor, in short, I feel a little pain, I said it! doctors paused, and said local anesthetic to get points, do not know what, I finally do not feel pain, just feel fear and be afraid! this time is 13:55!
like they are in use as the laser surgery I felt a doctor gave me a knife, if I shake his hand one-sided, major blood vessels to cut me, I shall be killed! I try to control their own body does not shake, I want to divert attention to their own, can not use, my attention entirely on the site I was planning to open, the more like not to think, the more to think about! time flies Mana!
my mind I think so good, you can good for a few days, go to Guangdong, a play; I think of when you can every day and her husband together ~ ~ ~ But when that one sounded the machine, to focus my attention to the little that site went up! < br> when I think of my parents, I thought of a father, I remembered in my heart: I am a good father daughter! strange! that my body will not shake it! I've tried several times, only the phrase so, let my body calm all at once. So when I feel they have to start with, and in my heart I read this sentence, so that they start with, I can not shake the body, such as they stop, I and follow the shake up! my tears in his eyes, no way, or my father is my spiritual support ah! this time her husband did not want to use!
endured the tears I do not want to let it flow out. I turned head, let it digest in my eyes out.
this time to walk slowly. I heard the doctor said if it is much easier fibroids, forced a little, click on the pull out, the slower point out. I feel the blood flow through my skin, they wipe with a thing.
until 14:20, and finally that my room, right breast mass that 2.8 * 2CM taken out! I listen to the doctor immediately notify the Department of Pathology, said, do not do acute slices, and this is a cyst, just a cyst, do not do rush up! my heart is also a stone off the ground!
doctor began to stitch my wound, heard him say inside seam first, to do the skin suture, to beauty line, was glad ah! started with him before the surgery I kept sewing feed beauty line, he did not agree, saying a number of common lines better! I vaguely see him through the cloth Yang Yang, a one hand, and seemed to like to sew! then he has to thread, I asked not to suture removal is not it? He said there is no class of ~ ~ ~, to disconnect the class! another halo! < br> I was thinking ahead of local anesthetics can not fail ah, or that the meat of the pain, but having a hard tie ah!
finally sewed his right, still above the press the press! really terrible! they wound me elimination of the drug, put a gauze, tape and paste it and then asked if I could sit up, local anesthetics have not failed, why not? I sat up, very brave look very calm and let the doctor wraps my chest layers of gauze, anesthetists take down my back needle bar, a seal affixed to my back like something, let me lay down again. if all of a sudden there were a lot of people, perhaps they have been in to see my the procedure, but I do not see them now.
a stretcher was pushed to the car, they want to help me move the car from the operating table, and I did not have relied on local anesthetic, to move under their own two-over! Then I guess it is 14:55!
their bags put away my bit to push me out. I did not sleep pillows, very uncomfortable, may have no alternative. finally know the car was pushing operation is What is the taste of!
through the quiet of the aisle, I saw the surgery department of the door, heard someone say, is who?
turn their head to my bed, I saw a blanket with grinning husband!
feeling a little introspective, a little rebirth moved, cry, tears in the orbit in turn, can such a small operation, how the nerve crying? then turned his head, let him see, wipe your
he walked in, take my car out gently on my forehead and kissed it, tears are coming in!
escort him and his older sister after my surgery elevator back to the cart to the ward. I was moved to his hospital bed. surgical department and ward nurses, doctors and nurses after the transfer, and finally quiet down.
I asked my husband to see the lump it? He said that, the big sister was there to describe large eggs, her husband was only described as a large pigeon eggs, I was confused. He said disposable cup filled and sent to the pathology. husband touched my head, I said, how to brave it! he smiled and said Yes Yes , well sort of. I said, not too quickly to take advantage of local anesthetic, let me get on a toilet, or so hurt, I'm not afraid to tamper with it! So he took the infusion bag to help me, I went to the toilet and hurried back to bed lying down. The nurse said to 6 hours before sleep pillows, to eating and drinking, to 2 hours can turn a body. Well, while I lay flat on the body have been uncomfortable, and may have to stick to it ah! < br> Sister touched my feet, cold, recruited her husband to give me something cover, cover sheets on my thin, I said nothing, I will be all right. My husband grabbed my hand , the beginning and the next bed smiling people joking. the next bed who is in surgery the day after my operation, there is breast lump, she had to move on both sides. My husband said he was threatened several times by doctors, the signature of the hands shaking, the doctor say those consequences, scary! I said there is nothing to fear, the worst thing that could not make the operating table! fact that before the surgery waiting for a few hours, I said to him, if I could not do the main stage , put me useful to donate organs to others, in fact, I also wanted him to tell the people who accepted my organs should they complete a project for me, to be in front of them to my mother, I ask her forgiveness for , but this point, I still did not say to him, I want to really 到了那一天, I'm not in this world, she must have hated me there will be no natural bar!
about half an hour after the anesthetic began to recede, I felt the pain of burning wounds, but fortunately, I can hold back the thought of my children to be less in the future some negative effect, I do not want to use the pain pump! I believe I can bear to live!
Soon Sister went back to cook the evening meal to give us her. My husband accompanied me and asked me to sleep for a while, how can I sleep, who have to sleep the pain.
the evening, delivering meals to older sister I do not eat, watching her husband eat Hong ah, he tired, busy job in Changsha, where they bear the heart ah. wait until 9:00, I drink water, eat some rice. In the next bed to accompany her husband to remind people, the rent a bed. Along with the pain of the wound, this day is finally gone!
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